boys complicate my life, but i guess it's worth it. maybe i shouldn't blame it on the boys because I'm the one that can't stayed focused and over analyzes EVERYTHING and reads into things etc. I have surrendered it and I will continue to fight to surrender it, but not suppress it. I've done that before and I don't want to do it again. it's just hard to know how to act...what to do...i just need to be myself, but when there are so many voices in my head it's hard to know which one to listen to...